We never had any children. I had to have a hysterectomy when I was 24 years old due to ‘endometriosis’. I grieved for 8 years, sometimes crying so hard that I would vomit. Always it would be in a closet or quiet place where no one could hear but Jesus. One day I stopped. Rick and I had been married 7 years and had moved 3 times. Lots of families with kids get moved around and do well. Our moving days had just begun. I became so involved with Rick’s ministry in radio and churches, that I knew God had something different in mind for us. So I quit crying and moved on. You see it always was a choice. Even though my heart was broken, I love kids, there was and is to this day something more God has in mind.
Today is the 8th month anniversary of Rick’s stroke. He wrote about it on his blog and posted on Facebook. We both have expressed ourselves before, and throughout this episode of our journey through this temporal life. We look forward to the life of ‘Promise’ daily with the vision of seeing Jesus Christ face to face and hearing Him say ‘well done’ and ‘welcome home’. On this journey we intend to accrue a mighty band of Christ followers who, with us will receive that promise.
When a woman is pregnant, there are constant changes in her body and she alone is responsible to make sure she takes care of herself during the 9 months of gestation. The promise of the child will come. I know there are some who have difficult pregnancies, some who delivery early, some who lose the child, but the majority deliver the child and the child begins to grow. We care for them because they are helpless. We teach them as they grow by word and deed. Children see a whole lot better than they hear, even when we think they are not paying attention. This is also true of birthing new children in Christ. They come to Jesus, we teach, we feed, we live before them the way in which they ought to live. The promise will come.
I believe the moment will come, the promise that Rick will be well. Others also believe. Our waiting has promise. The time we wait must not cause us to be anxious or to cry because ‘it is not yet’. The promise of restoration is not nullified by the passing of time. In God’s time and in His hand He turned the water into wine, caused blind eyes to see, healed the lame and broken-hearted. We rejoice in the promise of future grace and live in God’s gracious love this day, while we wait for the promise.